It's been a while. I have been busy, I have been flustered, and generally in a shitty state of being. I have a few things going on in my life that are well and good, but for the most part my life seems to be a wonderful jumbled mess of disarray and craziness. In general, the guy who was a sports nut his whole life and took more steps to stay in some type of shape (beyond smoking that is) than about 90% of the people in his age group... Yeah me, I am falling apart. I hurt like and old bitch. I am angry, I am sad, I feel 70. I had Cervical Spinal surgery last year. Yes, I had become paralyzed in my left arm with serious pain. It was unreal, and I have been through several surgical knives in my life. Well, long story short on that one, I had a C-4 through C-7 fusion. I came out well, I felt better. I knew there was going to be some type of permanent nerve damage as the doctor had told me, and I feel as though I am wearing a glove. Well, 1st month X-Rays, all is well, everything is set up the way it should be. Start Physical Therapy. I did, I did nothing more than I was told to do in PT. I pushed in PT, but was in no way harsh on my body. Suddenly... Migraines, Neck and shoulder spasms 24/7, PAIN,,, fucking constant pain. The type of pain that makes you want to stay in doors because you know if you deal with the general public very much you will snap at them, your family or anyone else who gets near you while in such a mode. It sucks, I hurt. Now I have a 1 of my screws hanging about half way out. I have troubles swallowing, drinking water etc... I am a general mess.
Then I continually watch how Republicans have blocked the whole Government from moving while they vote over and over again to repeal something the American people overwhelmingly want to see happen like OBAMACARE. Just like Marijuana legalization and taxation. Much like easing up on those who have already made it over the border, teaching them and getting them assimilated ASAP.
What has happened to us as a nation when it is OK in someones eyes to tell a woman what she can and can't do with her own body based on another persons Religious views? When did it become "just fine" to votes against women's healthcare and have laws imposed by legislatures that are well over 90% male in total? When did my clock "Fall Back" to 1890? Why is Gerrymandering still allowed? Who IS voting for the Eric Cantor's of the world? Why does the richest nation in the world only lead in prisons, infant deaths and evolution questioners? Did a Black child who is near the same age and I am sure no more shady than some of my own have to die? Did a short man with a wanna be cop complex have to get out of his car and follow him? Did the boy who had Skittles and Tea need to die even if he threw punches at an unidentified man following him in the late dusk hours of evening? Is it OK for Militias to take over towns in States across this nation? Is Mark Kessler crazy and out of touch? Do more White People than will admit they feel exactly like him still hide in the shadows waiting to let out that hiding little bad guy? Do tough guys really need machine guns shooting at hillsides to prove they will stand up to "tyranny"? Would that make him tough because he can pull the trigger, or a pussy because he did? Does he have a free speech right to threaten and make intimidating speech toward political figures? Is everything truly Barack Obama's fault? I am SAD. I see all of these things, and I hurt, I hut for the fact we let ignorance of silly things separate us, we the people who used to work as a group to get things done and make things happen. Tell me something good folks, it has been a while, and I am about to start a new adventure that will have me posting a lot of writing and I am scared...lol More on that later. :) (THIS IS A LATE NIGHT RAMBLING RANT, SORRY FOR TYPOS ETC...)
